Mother's Day...

...in Melbourne is a wet and grey one... That sort of damp, drizzly weather that keeps everyone home in the warm... I am no different although we plan to go out later this afternoon for a little while...

Hmmm... not much to say really... Life is slowly returning to some routine now that I am working full time again... Would you believe I have been at my new job just shy of a month - how time flies when you are having fun!!!! But in fact time seems to have become lightening speed - we seem to be rushing through this year - it is nearly tax time again - that always tends to mark the middle of the year. Again I feel a little frustrated as I feel like I have been walking around in circles really not achieving as much as I would have liked to by now... Yes, I can hear you say that my year up until six weeks ago has been a bit of a waiting game because of my op etc...

I have decided that a physical list may be in order - there is nothing more satisfying than being able to cross something off a list and declare it 'a done deal'... At the moment everything seems to just whirl around in my mind with no end result...

I think also now that I am part of the CQRR over in a craft forum I need to 'have my wits about me and organize my time a little more effectively as to get these done as they arrive... I am expecting the first block to arrive any day now - mine have reached their first port of call in Queensland - I didn't realise that by the end of this RR my blocks will have traveled to New Zealand, England and America... I knew that they were going overseas but I didn't realise they were about to circumnavigate the globe. Now I wish... If wishes were horses beggars would ride my mother used to say...

On a similar note I have noticed that some of my regular blog reads have taken 'a leave of absences' citing in most cases similar reasons as I have just said - that time seems to have got away from them and there just don't seem to be enough hours in the day to do everything and that it was time for a breather from the blogging world until they sort out their real life...

I wonder whether it is 'a chicken or the egg' type thing - less time or just more to do in the same time frame... Unfortunately whatever it is - it seems to have the same effect for most people - it brings everything to a standstill - nothing then, of course, is achieved... We live in such a fast paced world where one has to be constantly 'in the race' - but I do wonder at times if we are like the mythical lemmings blindly racing to the cliff's edge... We are such a consumer driven society where we are constantly bombarded with images of 'the perfect life' providing we subscribe to whatever is being flogged at the times...

I don't know whether it is because I am the age I am or whether I am having some epiphany, but as I look around I question why I have collected the things I have over my life... Does it give one some sort of security or does it give one a sense of self - a bench mark to who one is in the world... I have noticed over the last 12 months or so that the urge to 'must have' is lessening... Yes, of course there are things that I would like to have but the urge to 'have them now' is all but gone... I have started to cull things that I have held onto for years - I look at them and I know that it is time for them to go to a new home... In an odd way as I do this I have the image of a snake shedding its skin - something that no longer 'fits' and has to be shed...

I sense wanting more from my life, but not in the material sense - but as yet I haven't an answer to what I do want. I learnt a very long time ago that we tend to distract ourselves with various means - addictions can at times come under this heading- rather than face what we need to... Is this - blogging- in some ways just another distraction... Yes, I agree that the comp is a wonderful tool - but I wonder, do we at times allow it to become 'the master' instead of 'the servant' it should be...

I am not sure why I am going down this path - it has been something that I have pondered about over the last few months - no, I haven't an answer to it all but I think that since I have noticed the number of people opting out of blogging land lately I wonder if it isn't all connected somehow... I would be interested in 'hearing' what others think...